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Saturday, December 3, 2011

sAlAm MaalHijrah...

since the title of this entry is already in malay, then i think i should just go with malay..

^^v assalammualaikum buat sahabat serta sahabiah sekalian... apa khabar iman?

ok, entry kali ini simple je.. (insyaAllah).. hahah tapi yelah, merpati terpaksa akui yang entry ini agak lambat la. Macam biasa lah, merpati bukan ada masa yang panjang nak meluahkan sepenuh perasaan pada blog ini (cewah!!)... paling2, sahabat baik merpati juga yang menjadi tempat mengadu. Semoga persahabatan kami akan bertambah erat hingga ke akhirat (wahh, pantun sudah!!)

hmm 2 perkara:

1) memandangkan dah ada perkataan sahabat baik di situ, jadi ada kejadian yang sangat istimewa... eh, silap... kejadian yang sangat....sangat...sangat....sangat istimewa telah berlaku pada merpati 29 nov lepas. Apa peristiwa tuh?? HAA tu akan merpati cerita next entry... (takut kalau cerita pasal benda tu, entry ini terus jadi satu koleksi cerpen yang boleh jadi jualan hangat di pasaran hahahah)

2) azam baru?

jadi, memandangkan perkara yang pertama akan diceritakan pada entry yang seterusnya, jadi entry ini khas untuk perkara yang ke dua.. berkaitan dengan AZAM...

Merpati terpanggil untuk buat entry khas untuk azam maal hijrah pada tahun ini selepas akk naqibah tanya soalan tu pada diri merpati yang masih lagi bertatih untuk mencari redha ilahi. Ditambah pula, ada satu kali itu baca satu blog yang menceritakan tentang azam maal hijrah nya. Pelik juga, ramai insan ( umat Islam terutamanya) pada masa kini sibuk fikir azam baru bila menjelang detik 1 januari tiap tahun, bila 1 Muharram, semua buat endah tak endah je. Agak2 di mana letaknya diri kita ye? hmm ini pun ibarat menegur diri sendiri. Merpati dulu pun sampai x sedar, tup tup dah 1 Muharram. Alpa sungguh diri ini.

Alhamdulillah, HIDAYAH itu MILIK ALLAH, jadi sekarang merpati dah pasang azam siap2 untuk penghijrahanku kali ini... nak tau??

---->> Dah ada kekuatan untuk mengenakan hijab yang sewaktu
            sekolah dahulu memang selesa dengannya..
---->> Cuba sedaya upaya nak kawal lagi hati ini dengan sifat
           sabar dan berlapang dada yang lebih menebal untuk
           jalinan ukhwah yang lebih mantap
---->> Nak jaga perlakuan lebih baik lagi agar menjadi contoh
            terbaik untuk adeq2 usrah dan CSG yang tersayang... :')
---->> Suatu minat yang dahulu menjadi kelebihan yang dicintai
           oleh diri ini akhirnya dapat juga berakhir...
           mungkin inilah jalan yang Allah permudahkan untukku..
           meskipun kadang2 hati merintih kerana keinginan itu harus
           dicampak ke tepi. aku yakin, inilah hikmah terbaik untuk diriku.. T_T




Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim, moga hijrah ku ini berkekalan malah bertambah baik lagi sebelum aku ditakdirkan kembali menghadapmu. Aku mahu kembali ke pangkuan-Mu dalam kedaan diriku yang terbaik sebagai hamba-Mu yang hina. :'))

Monday, November 21, 2011

.... something from the inside....

heee... waaaa and now finally i got the chance to update my blog. Even though i do have something aka important work to do, but oo well, i really need to write this.. i miss youuuuu my blog... heehhe ^^v

One of the program that i've been busy with
Anyway, in this hustle bustle of merpati's life, definitely i will face a point that i just....urm... couldn't take it anymore. and that is when i just cried out loud alone, whispering all my sorrow to Allah, the One and Only that i believe will understands me. *asal mata nk berair lak ni...

yup, behind this smile and laugh, merpati also gone through a rough time this whole week. My only mistakes is maybe i just keep it to myself. I don't talk about it that much, i tried to ignore it, i never mentioned anything with my best friend... basically, i tried so hard to hide it from everyone... if only someone can come to me and look right to my eyes and say, "are you ok?".. i guess... i will hug them and cried on their shoulder.. *oo man... dah makin pedih pula mata ni...

then, finally... when the limit is over-reached, i cried on my tikar sejadah  and reciting al-Quran even though i can hardly saw the word.... T_T

Alhamdulillah... i managed to put myself back together... and it felt like Allah clears everything, one by one, for me... give me back my long-lost smile :D

sooooooo, kids, moral of story is........ never loose hope to Allah as He always there to listen...and always be missing you without you even notice it.... Love you more Allah...

plus... there's a few ... you know.. just a few... urm... so-called... fairytale-like-story.... happened.... ^^v ok... *putus fius pula...

ok, done till now... i will continue later. please pray the best for me...because i will pray all the good thing to mankind all over the world especially to my islamic brothers and sisters.... up-up and away merpati....!! ^^v

Friday, October 28, 2011

... let's try this one....!!

I remember years agoSomeone told me I should takeCaution when it comes to loveI did, I did-------
And you were strong and I was notMy illusion, my mistakeI was careless, I forgotI did
And now when all is doneThere is nothing to sayYou have gone and so effortlesslyYou have wonYou can go ahead tell them
Tell them all I know nowShout it from the roof topsWrite it on the sky lineAll we had is gone now
Tell them I was happyAnd my heart is brokenAll my scars are openTell them what I hoped would beImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossible
Falling out of love is hardFalling for betrayal is worstBroken trust and broken heartsI know, I know--------
Thinking all you need is thereBuilding faith on love and wordsEmpty promises will wearI know, I know--------
And now when all is goneThere is nothing to sayAnd if you're done with embarrassing meOn your own you can go ahead tell them
Tell them all I know nowShout it from the roof topsWrite it on the sky lineAll we had is gone now
Tell them I was happyAnd my heart is brokenAll my scars are openTell them what I hoped would beImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossible!Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)
I remember years agoSomeone told me I should takeCaution when it comes to loveI did
Tell them all I know nowShout it from the roof topsWrite it on the sky lineAll we had is gone now
Tell them I was happyAnd my heart is brokenAll my scars are openTell them what I hoped would beImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossible
I remember years agoSomeone told me I should takeCaution when it comes to loveI did...
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Friday, October 14, 2011

.... LeLaKi Itu .....

Islam itu BAHAGIA
Agak-agak siapa lelaki yang paling tampan, paling macho, paling baik, paling cool, paling best, paling hebat dan paling berkuasa di antara insan-insan bernama lelaki?

jeng, jeng,jeng....hihi
...jawapanya senang je...
Dia adalah LELAKI YANG MAMPU MENJADI IMAM.. ^_________________________^

Lelaki macho bukan lelaki stylo, lelaki cool bukan lelaki mulut manis berkereta hebat, bekerjaya mantap..bukan. Tapi lelaki yang cool, paling macho, paling tampan dan hebat adalah hanya kerna dia mampu jadi Imam!

Lelaki adalah PEMIMPIN kepada keluarga. Lelaki yang mampu menjadi Imam kepada keluarganya bukan sahaja akan berusaha gigih membentuk diri sebagai seorang mukmin yang sejati, tetapi beliau juga tidak akan lupa untuk membawa keluarganya ke gerbang kejayaan hakiki..iaitu SYURGA! ~~~

Dan juga mereka (yang diredhai Allah itu ialah orang-orang) yang berdoa dengan berkata: Wahai Tuhan kami, jadikanlah kami beroleh dari isteri-isteri serta zuriat keturunan kami, perkara-perkara yang menjadi penyejuk mata (menenangkan hati), serta jadikanlah kami sebagai Imam bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa”

(Surah al-Furqan ayat 74)

So,kaum Adam diluar sana..sila lah sahut cabaran ini untuk menjadi lelaki paling cool dan macho! yeah! you can do it! hihi.. n______n
"Lalu apa yang telah aku lakukan selama ini...Ya Rabb...tolong ampuni ku...untuk setiap pandangan yang tak terjaga, lisan yang merayu dan hati yang tak terhijab... Ya Rabb...Engkau mengawasi kami tiap detik, karena kasih sayangMu kepada kami Engkau perintahkan malaikat silih berganti menemani kami siang dan malam..."












... from facebook Jannati Baiti....

Friday, September 30, 2011

....is this what we call as love....??

ok... first of all... you can be mad at me because this blog is a bit quiet lately.. what to do, i'm really bust handling a 'big program'. now everything is done.. well, not all actually, XD because there will be more activities after this. but its ok, i love it, like it and enjoy it very much especially when we talking about to be a da'ie (promote others to do goods and leave all the bads),  this is one of the best way... so goooo merpati (waa over excited!!)

i know its too late to say this.. but still i to say it out loud... (hehh :p my blog what...)


so, from the very bottom of my heart, if i did hurt any of your heart, i'm truly sorry.. nobody in this world want to hurt anyone without no reasons... :D maaf zahir batin....

so, next thing that i want to say is... well, i quite enjoy working with some new members in CSG for that 'big program' i was just talking about... even though it doesn't really turned out very smoothly as planned, but i could say i was ok... hey, every happens for its own reasons.. maybe Allah want to show me something that i missed.. yeah... maybe n_n insyaAllah...

ok.... now back to the main topic...
is this what you called love..
or maybe....
just a momentarily feels..
that your mind confused by..
should say end to it..
or ..
is there any other way out..
coz you know...
the 'right time' ...
is still not the right time for you..
out there..
many are still waiting..
for you to guide them..
to be a better muslim..
or at least..
a better human being..
so, 
you are still a 'small kid', merpati..
you never been in love before..
dare to take that risk??
the great love from the Most Merciful always there..
to be cherished..
to be bloomed..
yes, you do merpati..

you do have that strength..
                             (merpati putih)


so........ hahhah confused?? relax... something 'funny' happened yesterday.. that made me almost can't sleep.. (mind the word 'almost'... meaning that i still can sleep.. hahahah alhamdulillah :D) what's that 'funny' thing?? hmm i'm sorry.. i can't really tell you guys..  only my best friends and rangers knew about it...

and it also have something to do with the poem i made above.. (i know its not that good... hey, i'm not an expert ok.. :p)... so, all in all i can say to those who are related, i guess its been quite a years that i didn't really ask myself about love except to Allah, Rasulullah, Parents, Family and Friends... so, i believe the Almighty above there knows what best for me and for you... just put the whole trust to Him.. insyaAllah...

hahhah ok... funny...funny..funny.. don't ask me anything more about this feeling2 thingy ok....
^_^ v

*******by the way, really had a great time with my new 'adeq usrah'.. please strengthen our ukhwah, Ya Allah... amin...

Thursday, August 25, 2011

... new ringtone... :D

hahhah just a short one..

--> can't sleep at night these past few days.. =(  am i loosing something or.... missing someone... goshhh stop it.. its just your imagination... ok happy face ^^ (click2!!)

--> hahha really love this new ringtone... Count on me (the same as this background music).. specially dedicated to all my friend... in this whole world... ( aww.. too much..!! )

ok thanks all...
++ enjoyable ramadhan, why you have to go so fast
++ insyaAllah, wish to get lailatul qadar 'reward'
++ happy syawal eid everyone... ^^v

Monday, August 1, 2011

star, circle, square... its family time!!

so, here it is.... 
merpati really love to do this with all family member (obviously like to eat it.. craving.. ~.~ heheh )
but, last friday.. adinda liyana was at school, kekanda arif and ayahanda was at work...
its just me and my bonda.. hey, its still fun.. see my creative work!! ^^v


Before cooked




Finally....,






 ^^v.... enjoy!!

Saturday, July 30, 2011

tho heh mere pyaare dhost.... n_n

hahahha it looks like this month is going to have the most number of post.....
aiyoo, this is the reason why a too long holidays is not really a good idea for me....
however, i do love it.... heeheheheh ( is not very often that we will be given this opportunity, right )

anyway.... this post is going to be just a short post.. special dedicated to my best friend forever, Mr. Ammar...
ok.. i know you like Malay better than English right.. ok...
****** shhhhhhhinggggggggg.... (sound effects)



ok.... yoo bro...!! :D
aku tahu ini hari yang special buat ko.. actually hari semalam kan.. since ini pun dah pukul 12...
i'm sorry i'm not the first.. (asal ada bi ni.. 0.0 ) hehehheh
patutnya post benda ini malam semalam, tapi dah terlewat pula...
yang tu memang salah aku.. heheheheh sorry ye awak... ( yee geli... hahahah)
aku tau 30 julai, sentiasa ingat, cuma problemnya x ingat semalam semalamnya 29 julai... hehehh


so..  hhehehe ( tiba saat ucapan.... tapi jangan gelak kuat sangat laa.. aku tahu la ayat ni akan sengal & senget sikit)


@@ pertama, selamat hari lahir yang ke-19... moga ko happy selalu dengan tuutttt hahhahahah
@@ semoga Allah sentiasa melimpahkan rahmat-Nya pada ko dan memberikan kejayaan dunia dan akhirat
@@ thanks for be there for me through hard or ease..  i know i can always count on you
@@ sorry ye kalau aku amat menyusahkan.... sob..sob...
@@ friends forever..??? hehehehe insyaAllah.. amin..

my bff's twins... (kembar ke..?? hheheh)

ok... may Allah bless you, me and our friendship.... :D insyaAllah...
^_^

Monday, July 25, 2011

.... My speCial Day...

I know for some people.. birthday is just birthday... just the same like many other days... but as for me... its different... BIG differents ok.. i look up to something different each year, each birthday...

Some people might said, "why are you so happy celebrating your old age, you are getting older each birthday.. why need to celebrate..?"

hahahha funny... but its okay.... its their opinion.... anyway... want to see something???

all the present... thanks to zizi, azri, bonda, ayahanda,  kekanda arif, adinda liyana, kak hani..... 

my best best friend treat me kfc

so, thanks to all my dear friends...
21 april 2011 really meaningful to me even though at that time i had classes (quiz some more and had to break fasting because suddenly i had this killing stomach ache... so thanks to my dear classmate for taking care of me at that time)
Like last year post about my birthday, i listed down all people that wish me accordingly (starting 0001 hour 21st April till 0001 hour the next day hahhhahh ) but.......
look at the date now... hahahah sorry...sorry...sorry... (short term memory).... i can't recall everything that happened that 21st April 2011....
all i remember was...

*** my father came to uniten and gave me a huge package of presents from my family.. (malu2...segan..:D)
*** stomach ache.. seriously painful, till my friend want to carry me on a chair to his car so that i could see the doctor ( thanks isaac and ilyas )
*** Section 4 sang a song for me....!!! tq... Love you guys...
*** a gift from mr.Tutor... really didn't expect that.... thanks a million ^^
*** a best date with my bbf, yana.. (29 May, remember my post before?) to hang out and celebrate my birthday altogether... love you dear...
***  thanks to those wishes on fb especially from those who wished me before i opened my 'date of birth' to 'public'...
*** and most importantly.... the one who did not wish even we talked that night and not even tomorrow or the day after tomorrow also.... but actually sent a dua' in his solemn pray for me... my best friend forever, Mr. Ammar... thank you sooooo much....

so i guess.... that was it... nothing much...
what's next??
wait and see...
thanks to all....
love you all....

big hugs from merpati... ^_^

Saturday, July 16, 2011

.... yearS past by, but the memorieS remain....

hmm.....
hye....
ok.....
what...???

i don't know suddenly merpati in this 'a bit emo' moment... aiyoo... i don't know, i guess last night all my relative were taking about when will you fly?? how's your study?? you've had your convo right?? how long you will be here?? and the best part is that.... 'hahhahah jangan nanti balik malaysia, rambut blonde sudah'... hahhahha another aunty said 'x pun balik2 tinggal mata je, ala.. macam citer tahajjud cinta kat tv 3 tuh'....

hahhahha, at first i'm laughing... seriously... hehhehhe well,  truly is't kinda funny. But, suddenly i saw how cute a married couple with a child in a picture, plus, my friend suddenly talking about want to engage hmmm...

wow, time flies really fast....
and that is when suddenly i went to take a look at 'someone' facebook...
urm.... so many years had past by, why i still want to even take a look at 'someone' facebook..
enough merpati... stop it... you know everything is vanished... nothing more... zero ok...
but its true, the memories is still the same.. it's still there...
huarghhhh... this is why i really hate to talk about feelings and emotion....
Ya Allah... give me the strength to really stand firm against all this un..un..unwanted feelings especially during this time.. during my study time... a lot of other thing i need to get my full focus on it...

ok... it insyaAllah will be ok if i stop having this lovey-dovey feelings...
ok!!!! i'm me back..( see this happy face..? hhehehh you go girl..!! )
^_^ ....................

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

no words can describe my feelings...

Kenangan indah bersama kamu semua...
Suatu nikmat Tuhan yang tidak ternilai,
Biarpun kita dipertemukan di waktu yang singkat ini,
Dirimu dan diriku...
Masing-masing punya cita dan cinta yang berbeda,
Daku minat irama riang yang berlegar,
Memenuhi ruang antara kita,
Kerna itu, perbedaan ini langsung tidak kurasakan..


Saat manis dan bermakna terpatri di sini,
Di UNITEN,
Ia bakal menjadi saksi utama,
Segala yang indah merangkai hubungan kita semua,
Belajar, bergurau, bertelagah,
Semua ku rasai,
Keseronokkan yang melatari tabir cerita kita,
Cerita apa..??
Cerita kita.... Section 4 El Loco Geng...




For a moment, i think this post is better if i write it in Malay...

Hye Merpati,
Sungguh dirimu bertuah berada dalam kalangan mereka... Sememangnya jalan yang ditetapkan oleh Allah itu begitu cantik dan indah. Tiada siapa yang menyangka bahawa aku akhirnya di takdirkan untuk menikmati rasa kasih dan sayang yang melimpah ruah dari syurga dunia yang bertapak seketika di Uniten, yang ternyata hanya sekelumit dari kasih sayang kepunyaan-Mu yang dikurniakan pada makhluk di bumi.


Nikmat yang sangat disyukuri apatah lagi bila ditempatkan bersama rakan baru di kelas "Section 4".. bukan lah kelas mana yang menjadi ukuran tetapi warga yang berada di dalamnya yang membuatkan aku x pernah berasa bosan atau menyesal mengenali tiap insan yang berada di dalam kelas itu.

Ya, pelbagai kasih sayang yang tulus dan murni aku perolehi dari keluarga kedua ku iaitu dari abang2 dan kakak2 PPI terutamanya senhinggakan aku merasakan bahawa CSG merupakan sebahagian dari hidup aku.

Namun, itu semua tidak sama rasanya dengan keluarga kecilku di Section 4... aku rasa mereka semua begitu prihatin dengan aku. Terpulanglah sama ada mereka sememangnya kisah atau tidak, tapi aku dapat rasakan kehadiran aku di situ amat dihargai oleh mereka.

Mana mungkin aku lupa apa yang berlaku pada diriku waktu di semester 1. Mereka begitu mengambil berat terhadap diri ini terutamanya insan2 terdekat seperti rangers dan mentor2 ku. Tiada ucapan mahupun hadiah yang mampu membalas segala jasa mereka, yang paling bernilai mampu aku berikan untuk mereka ialah doa semoga mereka dipanjangkan umur dalam kebahagiaan dunia dan akhirat serta tercapailah segala impian mereka.

Mengapa tiba2?

Pejam celik pejam celik dah hampir setahun aku di UNITEN, selalunya aku akan update blog berkaitan dengan apa yang paling menarik bagi tahun lepas (untuk tiap2 tahun baru).. tapi tahun 2010, aku masih lagi x tulis apa2. Kerana jujur aku katakan, yang paling manis pada 2010 ialah saat aku berkenalan dengan ahli2 Section 4.. Macam2 yang aku belajar bukan sahaja berkaitan subjek malah berkaitan hidup juga. Pelbagai persepsi berubah. Antara yang paling ketara ialah... urm...urm... hehhehe maaf jika keterlaluan ayat ini. Merpati sedari dahulu tidak suka bergaul dengan orang2 yang berasal dari Kuala Lumpur dan sekitarnya. Bagi aku mereka... terlalu.... hmm... tp itu semua dahulu. Benarlah apa yang orang dahulu katakan, x kenal maka x cinta. Tempat bukanlah jaminan seseorang itu baik atau sebaliknya, sebaliknya, hati budi dan didikan sahsiah mereka yang membezakan segalanya.

Dan mungkin, alasan yang paling kuat mengapa tiba2 aku benar2 mendalami perasaan cinta persahabatan kami ialah, ada antara kami yang akan melanjutkan pelajaran di luar negara terlebih awal seawal bulan 8 ini. Sedih namun itulah rezeki mereka yang patut kita banggakan kerana universiti yang menempatkan nama mereka bukanlah calang2 universiti. Mereka insan yang dipilih oleh Allah untuk menerima hadiah terbaik itu. Tahniah kawan!!

Dalam erti kata lain, tinggallah beberapa orang dari Section 4 yang bakal meneruskan Ijazah tahun pertama mereka di sini bersama-sama saya dan berkemungkinan juga dalam bidang2 yang berasingan. Ibarat walaupun dekat kami mungkin akan terpisah.

Bagi diri merpati, sedikit pun x akan melupakan mereka semua sehinggalah tiba suatu saat dimana kami akan disatukan kembali dengan izin Allah. Dan merpati yakin, saat itu, mereka semua telah menggengam kejayaan masing2 dan mungkin juga ada yang telah menempah tiket untuk memasuki bahtera cinta dengan orang yang tersayang ataupun mungkin ada yang sudah mengecap bahagia dengan telatah anak kecil di samping mereka... haaa alangkah seronok saat itu untuk kita berkongsi pelbagai jejak2 hidup ketika kita dipisahkan sementara oleh takdir Tuhan.

hmm... terlalu panjang untuk dihimpunkan segala memori indah dalam satu warkah yang todak seberapa ini. Yang hanya dapat aku katakan adalah once a section 4, always a section... go el loco!!!

Thanks Rangers, [ Didi, Mimi, Zizi ]
Thanks Melwyn, [ banyak belanja diri ini...  again and again.... ]
Thanks Azri, [ perhatian dan sokongan yang diberikan amat bernilai, hingga berkesan SAT ]
Thanks Al-Ameer, [ tutor yang memang terbaik la.. percayalah, kalau x fizik memang terjun bangunan jawabnya ]
Thanks Fitri and Azim, [ x nak la cakap banyak2 sebab korang masih ada lagi untuk gaduh dengan diri ini tahun hadapan ]
Thanks Mira, [ banyak betul persamaan yang dirasakan, cerita panjang2 tahun depan la ea ]
Thanks Alia, [ memang style la kawan dengan anda, macam2 cerita & lagu boleh jadi tempat rujuk ]
Thanks Nadia and Saniah, [ kawan yang memang sangat 'hapenning' dan 'helpfull' ]
Thanks Isaac and Ilyas, [ you guys are totally cool, isaac- love your mac and thanks for the ride ]
Thanks Kanmani and Ying2, [ comel la korang berdua, boleh gelak2 lagi untuk satu tahun lagi ]
Thanks Fyna, Lobna and Maggie, [ cute, cool and sweet ]
Thanks LCD, [ memang sunyi la nak dengar, 'teacher, don't rub', the present is nice also ]
Thanks Albert, Chow and Kim Yu, [ you guys are superb cool hyper geek ever ]
Thanks Ana, [ sempoi la ana, nanti kita gosip2 lagi ye ]
Thanks Abbas and Amir Basiran, [ cool la korg, style2, amir, nanti ajar juggle lagi ]
Thanks Shiva, [ respect you la sir.... ''v'' ]
Thanks Azra and Jagatheesan, [ walaupun join section 4 a bit late, still the craziest mind and soul just clicked ]
definitely.....
Thanks Kaness, [ for everything la, i tell you next year k... :D ]




suatu kenangan kini terpahat jitu dihatiku...
x mungkin kulupa tiap saat bersama dirimu..
hati kecil ini berbisik...
lagi 10 tahun dari sekarang, dimanakah kita semua....??
n_n....
di sini segalanya yang terindah itu kurasakan bukan di bibir sahaja,
tetapi hati naluriku berkata bergitu, dan Ya Tuhan aku yakin itu semua suratan indah atas ihsan dan rahmatmu untuk diriku sementara degup jantung masih belum terhenti.
Terima Kasih Ya Rabb, moga Kau lindungi mereka semua dan permudahkan jalan menuju kejayaan tiap mereka... ^^v

from the bottom of Merpati's heart.... ^_^

Monday, June 20, 2011

.... Mr Nice...

^^... this post is specially for Mr. Nice...

Its been quite a while i haven't talk anything about Mr. Nice right... well.. don't know what to say. Hopefully he understands that i'm quite busy here.... is it?

ok..ok.. He rarely massaged me so... i don't know what to talk to him... But, i know he's still ok and happy with his life now..

Actually, now merpati is working on a post.. very special post.. Now, it has been 3 days for me to write it, edit it here and there.... but still the last touch up haven't finish yet. :D

Apart from that, the best part is that, my family is coming this Thursday, but the sad part is that.... i can't go for the dinner. At first i'm totally ok with it, but then someone said to me she will follow me, if i don't go, she also don't want to go. But then, look now..!! Suddenly out of no where, i asked her again, now she said she will go. She said she really don't want to, but from what i can see, she seems to really enjoying the thrill and excitement to be on that night, with all the baju and theme... whatever...

After talked with my best friend, then i cast off all the negative thoughts... she said don't want to spend to much for that night, so i lend her my dress. Maybe, she don't feel comfortable to wear other's cloth so.. she bought a new one. As long as she happy, i'm happy, but please... no need to show that in front of me. It makes me more hurt... i'm sorry if i react a bit 'weird' to you... i try really hard, trust me really2 hard to control it but.... please forgive merpati.

k.. it suppose to be just a short post, but i didn't realize it could be this long... ok...,thats all for now... GOOOOOOOO Merpati!!!!  ^_^v

Thursday, June 2, 2011

hope he's fine... :D


that's what friends are for, right??
its just i reacted to the situations a bit late..
how could you, merpati!
i'm just afraid that my presence there, is not needed,
in fact, could make him more annoyed,
now, everything's back to normal again.....
smile, everyone...!!! ^^v

Saturday, May 28, 2011

No more Lagha....

ok... hye there... ^^v want to make it fast.. no more langha2... (wasting my time with unnecessary things)..hehehh
hopefully... InsyaAllah.. because what i can say now is that, i'm in a process... process of what?? Process to improve myself to be a better person and especially a better slave to my Lord, Allah..

* No more Lagha because :
     > >> i no longer have fb (in the meantime maybe)
     >>> i have another duty/ responsibility now, ^^ guess what i have my own adeq usrah now... heheh
     >>> exams is just around the conner so.... merpati, you have to strive for it k..!!

Shock?? yup, i deactivated my fb last Thursday.. why?? something happened, i don't really like it and so its best if i just keep myself in silent for a while, searching for peace. After all, i've been thinking to do this not that long but recently actually because its not really fb affected my study (urm... just a bit maybe), but people always misinterpret something that i see or read. And together in this "process" that i mentioned just now, its a perfect time to deactivate my fb, not delete it because somehow, i need it to communicate with my classmate, CSG and a lot more. ^^v However, the next time i open my fb, maybe be there will be a huge changes in my fb... hehehh wait and see ok...

So, nothing much to share just want to make a simple note here (before i lost the memory :D heheh),
++ 29 may, thanks my best friend, girl's day out totally awesome, drove own car some more..
++ 14 may, totally a big change in my perspective...

ok, that's it. Later, i'll add some more about those two dates.. the story behind the scenes.. wuuu ok.. daaaa ^_^

p/s : pray for my success k...

Sunday, May 8, 2011

just 4 a while.... please.....!!!

ok... last entry i talked a lot.... but this entry is made specially to my best friend, Liyana and Ammar.. eh wait... Asilah also... and most important of all to "senior"...


ok.... just want to say.....



oo ya... also to my rangers friend and my "ex".... hahhaha



**** psstt... really amazed with anwar hadi... who?? here's the link... he's.... different... ^^v


plus, there's another one... really wish i could meet him.. if only all guys are like him...


its his blog.. hehehh gotcha!! ok... that's all for now.. fly merpati...fly away... fly to your physics... the rest done already... just a few things that need a last touch up... ^^

arrrGGgHHHHHHhhh....!!!

relax merpati.. relax... remember patience is a virtue.... i'm soooooo mad now till it feels like i want to cry...

*with the song of Maha Melihat by Opik hitting my ears right now, but in a very pleasing way, makes my heart a bit emotional, plus the calmness environment at masjid here... thanks Allah... :') ....

it suppose to be a very delightful day with my mom and the rest of the family... why?? because today is Mother's Day.... yes.. i miss you mak, i love you mak... and always pray for you, mak.... even though i just went back last thursday till monday... still... i never celebrate Mother's Day without giving my mom anything.... just called her this morning and told her that i love her and thanks 4 taking care of me all this while with high patience...

But, that was not the reason why i feels so angry right now...

The only "white" thing in the world that i don't like or suffice to say that i really hate is WORM.... yup the white worm usually found near the garbage or dirty places. So, yup!
dirty = worm = totally not me...

This is not the first time it happened but used to happen before and i did gave a warning but in a nice way... but doesn't seems to work i guess..

Well, this is where the whole story began...
........ i was just about to finish washing all my clothes. don't even get to sit to catch back my breath i saw small ants all around the dinning table... i took a closer look.... ooooo s**t.... yup i also didn't aspect that word will came out from my mouth... i never want it to be like that... but i'm sooooo pissed off... do i have to remind them to throw away all the "sisa makanan" after you finish it?? what, do you aspect someone to throw it 4 you is it??... arggghhhhhh...... (astagfirullaAllah hal 'azim....) feels like i want to throw glass to the wall or hit the wall with my hand... but what's the point.. "they" have done nothing to me... merpati, don't put your anger towards something else.... ( ya Allah... astagfirullaAllah.. forgive me...)

yup... that's why i straight away cleaned everything up, i sprayed, i mopped and i just walked out the door... want to get a moment to calm and "beristighfar" ...

i thought... the first thing that i want to update here after my birthday suppose to be a cheerful and happy mood but then.... i don't know...

plus, there's another thing happened... its between my study and my beloved usrah... just imagine, they aspect me to go to a camp but they informed me on friday (the day where we all supposed to go to the camp side after maghrib)... yes, kakak naqibah did informed me about a camp early on the month of april but that was like...
" urm.. dalam awal bulan 5 la.. dia kem yang besar... lapangkan lah minggu2 awal bulan 5... program? adalah.. kne pergi dulu baru tahu... siapa lagi? nanti hari tu tahu la.. tapi sekarang jangan inform pada siapa2 dahulu ye... dengan rangers pun jangan... t akak akan cerita lagi"... 

i never told anyone even till a friend (same usrah with me.. a PPC guy at UNITEN..) asked me...
" eh, x pergi kem ker? minggu ni? selepas kita exam culculus jumaat tu la.."


... i thought that maybe he wasn't talking about the same camp.. because definitely he not supposed to tell anyone, right? ...

then, long story cut short... early morning on that friday, while my head was only thinking of polar equation.. polar coordinate.... polar form.... polar..polar... almost like a polar bear already...
tett..tett..tett..tett.... (message received)... 
  "...... bla...bla..bla.... pergi tak kem minggu ni...?"


.... i was like... huh?? this week...?? so.... it was exactly the same camp as that PPC guy said to me and other rangers said to me.... i haven't finish my html assingment, my cmpf project and presentation, my physic's revision, my csg banner for promotion on the next event, my revision on LINUX..... Ya Allah...

i know.... excuses!! .. some might say that i'm just looking 4 an excuse.. well, for your information... i'm not a type of person who would say,...
"oh, i'm sorry i can't go this program because i want to study"


... no...no....no...  since i was in kindergarten... i love activity and my study i will take a long with it.. not making it an excuse to be out from any events or activity but this time is different... especially when dealing with my PHYSICS... ( Allah the only one who knows my feelings whenever i hear that physics word)... but nobody else would understand.... i really want to go but next week definitely i will not going to catch up any physics theory if i didn't finish all my assignments and works this weekend...


so, here i am now.... at the masjid, trying to put my self back together.. but before that.. merpati wants to say thank you soooo much to both my best friends and "senior" for giving me some good advices. After istikharah and deep thought...its the best way.... yup, they might say that they know me and i can handle my time... but think again, I, knows my self better than anyone else right...?

...hope for the best hikmah from Allah... may Allah's bless be with me... amin.... : |

Thursday, April 7, 2011

hello.... aPriL....!!

hey..hey.... yup... its around 4 o'clock in the morning....
can't sleep... what to do... in fact, still have a lot of work to be settled.... plus, tomorrow morning, i have quiz... pray for my success k....

anyway... see......see.................... HELLO APRIL.....!!
My favourite month.... ^_^... why??? hmmm..... wait and see... just in a few days more.. to be specific another 19 more days..... my special day.... memorable moment.... i wish this time it will be different with last2 experience... could it be more special this year?? Lets just hope so....... amin.....


ok... that's all.... back to study merpati... you know you can do it... caiyok2!! hheheh ^_^

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

..... tika kita berhias serba putih... :D (read between the line...ehheeh)

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Saturday, March 5, 2011

...... This is the whole truth .....!!

good morning...!!! hahha well, not really that morning.. it's almost 11 0'clock... ok..ok... ^^v

well, guess what... merpati now not at Ilmu but at BM (Baitul Munawwarah)... my naqibah's house.. hehehh its their new house actually. They just moved in... so last night, they did small kenduri.. i was here since last 2 days.. hehheh well, we were supposed to have our usrah here... ^^v  i really enjoyed my time here.. it was fun like i'm having a great time with my own family.. so they are all now like my second family here.. love them... thanks kak....


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Next, i would like to clear everything up.... well, as you guys know about my lil' project... Yup, it was quite 'hot'... its hard for me to explain especially to all my friends... However, both my best friends are among the first person to know the real story, then my rangers family and a few of important people.. hehheh

And for those who reading this entry right now *i assume you want to know my story, right? (perasan) hahahah....  anyway, honestly, there's nothing going on between me and that 'h' guy..... seriously..  this is one of the way to know who is my friend and who is not.. nonsense right? yeah, i know its hard for you guys to understand. its ok..... i won't force you guys... this is just an opinion.. personal opinion.. if anyone do disagree with me, you are free to do so... its a free country after all.. hahhahah

So... basically this is my opinion... "true friend will know the real me, care for me and dare to stop or advise me if i'm going astray.... because Hamka once said friend that agrees with you is a good friend but friends who dare to scold you when you are wrong is a better friend... something like that... therefore, i really hope to see that..
alhamdulillah... there are still some people who are still do care for me.. thanks friends.. even though this isn't always true or proved anything specifically but as to me at least i know who are dare and who are just happy.. i do understand most of my friends will say congrats because they know before this i never had anyone special in my life except than my family and best friends... so definitely they will feel happy for me.. but in Islam itself there are no terms neither 'couple' nor 'couple islamic'..... so, its ok friends i just want to know 'something'... which merpati rather keep it as merpati's own secret... hope you guys can understands.... with that 'something', now i see and realize something...."

Deep inside, to some point, i really want to apologize to my friends and my naqibah, hehheh merpati knows, this crazy little girl did quite a 'weird' thing sometimes.. hehehh but, just want you guys to know, whatever kakak taught me all this while in our usrah had never been a waste to me.... and i'm sorry if what i did gave a bad impact on you guys.... but, what happened last night told me that, even kakak that barely know me believed that i would never do such things, but some of my close friends.... hmmmm its ok.... we are after all just a human being.....

ok2... cheer up girl....!! you know what you are doing and now my status in fb, i hide it... why?? after most of the guys outside know that i already 'belong' to somebody, those who are not really be friend with me sincerely, will just step away.... because in my previous post entitle, "Titipan buat wanita", they were no use being admired with plenty fake love of guys where lies sins and Allah's wrath behind it. in other words, i may control a bit my frienships with too many of guys. hope other girls outside there would understand the real meaning of this sentence. merpati are also imperfect, but i'm learning... ok??? heheh

fuhh!! a bit melodramatic here.... ok2.. now merpati back in business... study kind of business not business study ok..
ohh ya!! one last thing... heheh i don't know that my wishing stars did fall recently because guess what... i'm now.. urm.... urmm.... urmmm..... ok2 easy...easy... i have been appointed as Naib Pengerusi III CSG... i also don't know... i'm also freaking out when i first saw this on paper.... hhahah its not that easy but insyaalah, i will and definitely strive with full effort to make this new CSG as successful as last sem or even better than them.. hahah *such a big dreamer....:p insyaallah....its Allah's undefined plan which i believe what is best for me...

off to study... go merpati... !! don't waste your time... hehheheh... pray for my success ok because last sem my pointer is freakishly much much better than first sem... so, continue the good job, merpati!!! ^_^

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

..... sweet hearts ....... ^_^


....amin....
one day..., merpati hope that we both shall life happily ever after
merpati and  ......??
who??
merpati also don't know....
only The Almighty knows that....
may Allah give the best choice for me....

*ok2... don't look at me like that... i just.. hehheh like the picture.. just saw it ok.. thats why i post it here... nothing more... hahhah its still time to focus on study la... :p hahhah... go merpati go.. fly as high you can... ^_^