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Monday, January 27, 2014

... Tarbiah dari Allah ....

Dalam sibuk menguruskan hal sebagai seorang mahasiswa, pada jam 10.00++ malam, merpati menerima satu mesej dari one of my new sis. "Eh, rindu sangat ke pada akk kesayangan dia ni sampai mesej lagi", perasan hati kecil ini. Bila baca mesejnya, tidak seperti mesej yang diberikan beberapa minit sebelum. Hati mula rasa ingin tahu yang membuak. Setalah menghabiskan beberapa latihan accounting, merpati terus membuka facebook seperti yang disarankan dalam bait2 mesej yang diberikan.

Ya Allah, alangkah terkejutnya merpati apabila membaca warkah itu. Setiap butir kata dan ayat merpati baca satu persatu. Cuba baca dengan tenang namun perasaan sedih bercampur kecewa dan marah semua menjadi satu. Namun, cepat2 dihapuskan perasaan itu. Takut kelak menjadi boneka permainan syaitan.

Sekali lagi, merpati berhadapan dengan situasi dimana jika dibalas, bagi merpati ianya hanya menambah kekusutan. Berhadapan dengan seorang individu yang jauh di sudut hati merpati amat mengagumi kehebatan beliau dalam berbicara dan mengutarakan hujah. Kehebatannya memang diiktiraf bukan dari pandangan merpati sahaja tapi juga warga sastera yang diiktiraf Malaysia. Namun, kecetekan kematangan membuatkan merpati merasa amat sedih dan terkilan.

Ya, kadang-kadang kita melakukan kesilapan. Namun, adalah kesilapan yang kecil itu kita jadikan tiket untuk menghimpunkan sejuta pengalaman atau kesilapan yang lalu untuk menjadi hujah atas keputusan kita sekarang? Perlukah tindakan drastik dilakukan tanpa perbincangan atau pengutaraan pendapat dilakukan kepada pihak yang terlibat? Hak bersuara atau memberi pendapat disekatkah?

Ya Allah, tanpa sedar aku mula merungut atas qada' dan qadar yang telah Engkau letakan diatas garis kehidupanku. Astagfirullah...

You will never solve the problem if you keep looking at the problem the same angle.. Ternyata mungkin dengan tindakan beliau, ramai yang "tidur" mampu tersedar dan bertindak untuk rasa bertanggungjawab. Atau mungkin juga keputusannya itu hanyalah untuk menguji rasa cinta dalam ukhwah yang terbina antara kita. Seperti nasihat Luqmanul Hakim, "jika kamu ingin mencari teman, ujilah dia dengan membuatnya marah"..

InsyaAllah.. Allah bersama dengan umatnya yang bersabar. Ya Allah tunjukilah kami jalan yang bernara, jalan yang diredhaiMu.. Amin....

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Thursday, January 23, 2014

.... forever inspiring ...

http://www.einthusan.com/movies/watch.php?lang=hindi&id=778

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Saturday, January 18, 2014

.... Jaulah Tahun Baru & Azam ....

Cepat je masa berjalan dan akhirnya dah tahun 2014. nampaknya kena tambah details di bahagian tepi blog ni. hmmm what actually the most significant moments that happened on me throughout this year?? i will think about that later. haha

For now, I would like to just focus on 2 things, my best Jaulah Tahun Baru & my New Year Resolution.

Okay, let's start with Jaulah Tahun Baru. hahah We, as in me and my adik usrah (new sisters) and couples of my friends went to more than 3 state in 10 whole days. Awesome journey, right? Yup, we travelled to Wisconsin, Ohio, Indiana, Chicago, Purdue, Edinburg (this is actually unplanned because we went there accidentally when I got the wrong address) hahah super lol.
Guess what we use to go for this travel? We use 4x4 Ford Expedition EXL. haha yup, super big and super huge. This was my first time driving this huge thing. Yup, of course I am the driver. Specifically the primary driver and the one and only legal driver in USA. My other sisters, they can drive too but the only have permit (in Malaysia its sort of P license). Especially when I was totally sick during our way back to Ames. Panas dalam. I just can't sleep, can't eat, feels like throwing up. All i do just drink a hot coffee and force myself to sleep. Yeah, its works a bit but my flue got me off after several days later.
Anyway, it was an awesome journey. We learned a lot and we just don't waste ourtime sitting in the car for hours doing nothing. We play games and if it is time, we recite mathsurat and surah hafazan. Thanks to Zainal for accompany us up till Indiana, thanks to Ustaz and family for letting us stay at your house and thanks to Didi for...for.. almost everything. Miss you back again. We will see each other again if you come to Ames for TJM this Spring break.

Next, New Year Resolution. I want to be a lady! hahaha You see, I don't think I'm lady enough. hahah Is not that I want to be matured real fast or anything like that, but the fact is that I am supposed to be more matured now as I already been given a huge responsibilities now and ... and.. okay I just say it, I am reaching my 22 this years. So, just think, if during Rasulullah and his Sahabah time, woman during this age will be on the verge of accomplish a huge mission or could be a huge responsibilities which was just not even way far ahead if compared to my responsibilities now. Thus, I want to prepared myself. More matured in thinking, reasoning, behavioring, intelectual and emotions too.
Other than that, I just to to contribute as much as I can to the ummah and portray a good example to my families, sisters and friends. I don't want to be the "fitnah" and poisons to my own religion especially when I am currently at the US and people view me as an indicator to what Islam is all about.

Okay, I guess, that was just it for now. A few big thing this year that i will quickly tell is that the sociology class research topic (still thinking what will be the topic), programming class back again (hopefully not as hard as before), TJM ( s/u again?? hmm.. okay coz at least Madje asked me to help him to be the AJK for sukan too) and counting days for......

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